Monthly Archives: November 2013

Peppermint can be Evil and Other Things I’ve Learned this Week…

Here I am with my turkey headband for the 5K Turkey Run on Thanksgiving.  Wish me luck!

Here I am with my turkey headband for the 5K Turkey Run on Thanksgiving. Wish me luck!

I knew this week would come…zero pounds lost. Yes, it’s better than gaining, but naturally I want to lose every week. Here’s what I’ve learned during my zero loss week….

*Peppermint can be evil…well, not really evil, but perhaps too enjoyable is a better way to put it. I love the holidays and the arrival of Peppermint Mochas starts the season for me. Fortunately they do come in a “skinny” version, but I realize I am drinking too many of them. They need to be a treat, not an everyday occurrence.

*I am in my head too much. Both my ever supportive hubby and one of my ever supportive friends reminded me of this. I think about things too much and then I become stressed. And then I want to eat and I want to hide in my house. Fortunately, I have an amazing group of friends and family who are here for me and I need to learn to lean on them more. And more importantly, to let some issues go….

*I doubt myself! Yes, even though I have lost 75.5 pounds through my gastric sleeve surgery, I still doubt my ability to lose more weight and to become healthy. I am doing my second 5K run on Thanksgiving and I am worried about it. I did it last year when I weighed over 85 pounds more than I do today. To ease my mind, I did my own personal 5K yesterday and I beat my time from last year, so these doubts need to leave!

This week is a good reminder to me to let some stresses go, to be mindful of my food intake and to really enjoy my family and friends. That’s what the holidays are about and really, it should be what my Down the Scale journey is about, too.

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Another Goal Bites the Dust!

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Here I am at Week 24 and 75.5 pounds gone!

Just a quick update as this is a crazy, but wonderful week full of activities for my kids and pre-Thanksgiving preparations.  On Week 24 of my gastric sleeve journey, I have met one of my many goals.  I have now lost 75.5 pounds!  When I started my journey last June I never could have imagined I would make this goal and how amazing I would feel.  The changes physically, mentally and spiritually are incredible!

Thank you to everyone for their support and encouragement!  With the holidays coming up, I know I will face more challenges, but I am ready for them!  Thanks for joining me Down the Scale…

Food isn’t the Enemy, but a Friendemy

Week 22 and 70.5 pounds down!  My and hubby and I celebrated our 15th wedding anniversary by walking in some of our favorite neighborhoods, having a light meal out and seeing a show.  And yes, it included my favorite coffee.

Week 22 and 70.5 pounds down! My and hubby and I celebrated our 15th wedding anniversary by walking in some of our favorite neighborhoods, having a light meal out and seeing a show. And yes, it included my favorite coffee.

My gastric sleeve surgery is the catalyst for many changes in my life, and my relationship with food is one of the biggest changes I am making. My smaller stomach physically restricts the amount of food I can eat at one time, but as I progress to Week 22 of my journey, I am able to eat more of a variety of food and I find I can eat more often. While it is nice to feel “normal” this is also giving me a bit of anxiety. With the holiday season here, or my other name for it, “the indulgent food season”, I need to really focus on my relationship with food. 

Food, in the past, has been such a huge part of my life. I used it to deal with depression, to reward myself for accomplishments, to fight boredom, and to celebrate holidays and anniversaries. I try not to use food in these ways, but it is going to happen. My anniversary weekend was a good test to see how I could handle food differently.

The ever-supportive hubby and I enjoying a night on the town to celebrate our 15 years being thick and now thin together. (A quick shout out to my hubby who has lost 50 pounds this year! He is amazing!) On these rare occasions when we have a date night, food would have been the focus. A dinner at a nice restaurant would always include appetizers for both of us, entrées and a glass of wine (OK, two) for me.

Now just because we’re eating better and healthier doesn’t mean we don’t want an enjoyable food experience. What we consider to be enjoyable, though, is now completely different! Instead of a huge, heavy meal, we ate wonderful salads at a café. They were delicious and left room for us to split a brownie from one of our favorite bakeries after we walked around the neighborhood! And there was still time for wine as we watched a musical show later that night. Such a lovely evening and it didn’t revolve around food!

So, food is not the enemy! Eating out is still enjoyable! But…yes, there had to be a but, I still struggle with some food. My body can handle tortilla chips and salsa very well; I’m afraid too well. Crackers are also easy for me to digest and I can eat more of them then I should. I don’t want to ban them from my diet because in the past that just makes me want whatever I say I can’t have even more. I am trying not to bring them in the house, but Goldfish crackers are a requirement when you have children. Healthy food is also another requirement, so that helps me when shopping for food. I am now finally eating like my children and it shows in how I feel and how I look. Oh, and how much weight I lose…70.5 pounds gone so far!

This is my latest challenge in my Down the Scale journey and that’s OK. I feel a bit like I have two personalities when it comes to food. “Normal Jen” eats healthy and small quantities, picks better food choices when she’s out and understands that small portions are satisfying. “Old Jen” thinks about fattening food, craves full sugar coffee drinks and wants non-fulfilling food like crackers in the pantry.

Fortunately, “normal” is wining over “old”, but I know that I will always have this struggle. And if the “old” wins sometimes, that’s going to be OK. I am human. I am not perfect. I am always trying to do my best and when it comes to weight loss and being healthy, that’s the best way to be, for me.