Monthly Archives: December 2013

Merry Christmas to Me!


A year makes a difference! Last year, I stood next to Santa, but this year I sat comfortably on his lap. Ho, ho, ho!

Tuesday is my official weigh-in day, but yesterday I came up with my theme for this week’s blog, “Gaining Weight and More…”. Turns out I have to change my theme since I didn’t gain weight this week! I lost 1.5 pounds this week for a total of 82.5 pounds in 29 weeks. A Merry Christmas to me indeed!

I was sure I had gained weight since I admit that I am eating more daily than I have since my gastric sleeve surgery.  I thought there was no way I could not have gained weight. Losing weight this week made me realize that I truly have changed my eating habits. Every year I gain at least 5 pounds during the holiday season. With so many food temptations and with the craziness of shopping, parties and tons of kid activities, in the past I have let my guard down and would eat with pure abandon. The holidays are no less hectic or frantic this year, but obviously my eating is not the same!

Physically I cannot eat as much since my stomach is much smaller, but I realize that I am making better choices when it comes to eating. Protein is my priority with some vegetables and fruit thrown in for good measure. I haven’t given up on holiday sweets completely. One sugar cookie is satisfying this year instead of the two or three I would have eaten last year. I can still enjoy a glass of wine at a party, not two or three. I have not gained weight this year, but I have gained the knowledge that less is more when it comes to treats. I need to remember this for the year and not just the holidays, though!

Instead of gaining weight this holiday season, I also gained more insights into the healthy life I am now living. Shopping for clothes is fun, not torture. It is overwhelming now that I have more clothing choices, but it has been over 20 years since I tried on clothes and said “Oh, this size XL is too large.” I’ve gone from a size 22 to size 12 in pants and a size 3X to size Large in shirts. And since I still want to lose another 29.5 pounds, who knows what size I will be in the future!

I’ve also gained a sense of normalcy when it comes to physical activities. I don’t feel like I am the odd one out when I run. While I am pretty slow still, I don’t feel like I’m the “fat chick” trying to exercise. I now feel like just another person in the park who enjoys running. And this weekend, we took a tour of a submarine and I didn’t panic during our tour and going through the small openings. I would have finished the tour in the past, but I would have been humiliated and stressed the whole time. With my healthier body, I was able to go through the submarine and enjoy the tour with my family. Everything from special activities to just walking around the city is much easier.

Now, of course the holidays are still going on and there is a chance of gaining weight. Hopefully, this week’s weight loss and my acknowledgment of the positive changes in my life will keep the pounds off. But I’m not too worried. I am enjoying the holidays, time with my family and friends and most importantly, my new healthy body and mind. I can’t think of a better Christmas present I have ever received! Merry Christmas!


Running Toward Success

It’s Week 26 of my gastric sleeve surgery journey and Hallelujah, the scale moved! I lost 3.5 pounds for a total of 79 pounds! Naturally, I love seeing the scale move down, but a non-sleeve victory last week was even better – I ran my second 5K race!

Turkey Run 2013!

Turkey Run 2013!

Turkey Run 2012!

Turkey Run 2012!

Last year, I ran my first 5K Race on Thanksgiving. Here are my feelings after last year’s race:

Now that my first 5K is a few days past, I have a few lessons I have learned:

  • When they say you will get trampled if you’re too close to the front of the starting line, they are right. I blew my shins out in the first five minutes trying to keep up and not get smushed.
  • When you text your husband at mile 1 with the words “I Suck” he will text you back the most encouraging and loving words. Every runner should have a Dave.
  • Somehow you will be able to finish and that is good enough. Forget any preconceived notions of a finish time. Use it to work toward the next race.
  • When you get to the finish line finally, having a great friend cheer for you like you’re in first place makes a difference. Every runner should have a friend like Noelle.
  •  I will run more 5Ks! And I will do this race again next even while wearing a turkey hat!

Here this year’s summary:

  • Starting the race farther back does help, but more importantly, thinking of your own pace and letting the crowds run around you is just fine. I did keep my eye on a few groups of runners so I would know how my pace was, but I concentrated on myself.
  • I didn’t need to text my husband this year! I knew he, among many others, were supporting me and I didn’t need to text him to remember I had many cheerleaders, near and far.
  • I finished and beat my official time from last year by 4 ½ minutes! More importantly, I was able to run more of the race than last year (79 pounds less makes a big difference) and I had fun!
  • Again, one of my biggest supporters, my friend, Noelle, was there to cheer me on as I crossed the finish line. She is one of my friends who inspired, encouraged and pushed me into changing my life in such a positive way and I can’t think of anyone better to be at the finish line!
  • Same as last year, I will run more 5K races! And I did wear a turkey headband this year. I like having a goal to push me and keep me focused on my physical and mental health!

I never thought I would call myself a runner. I have never been athletic, but running is something I enjoy. I can do it at my pace, no matter what size I am. This is one of the greatest lessons I learned this year. Find something you love and do it at your own pace. Be true to yourself and you can find peace, happiness and success.

I am trying to keep in mind that success is what matters to you, not what anyone else thinks. Am I losing weight to look good and fit in our society better? Yes, I must admit I am, but I am also losing weight to be the person I want to be and the person that I know I am. This is my definition of success and I am excited to keep working toward this as I go Down the Scale…