Monthly Archives: January 2014

Quick Update on Week 34

Celebrating my 87.5 pound weight loss with a new haircut.

Celebrating my 87.5 pound weight loss with a new haircut.

It’s a busy week, but I did want to post a quick update on my gastric sleeve journey.  I lost two pounds this week for a total weight loss of 87.5 pounds!  Not bad for Week 34 of my journey.

I am celebrating this loss with a new haircut.  Now that my face isn’t so chubby I decided to go shorter.  Fortunately, my fabulous hair stylist agreed and we went for it.  Change is a good thing in so many ways!

Thanks for following me on my journey Down the Scale…

Taking Control…Again

Enjoying my 85.5 pound weight loss with a run at one of my favorite running spots!

Enjoying my 85.5 pound weight loss with a run at one of my favorite running spots!

Week 33 of my gastric sleeve surgery journey is here and I have lost a total of 85.5 pounds! I am thrilled, but I must admit I didn’t blog last week because I gained weight. I was a bit freaked out, OK a lot freaked out, over the half pound weight gain I had during Week 32. Common sense says this is normal, but I have plateaued, but not gained since my surgery. I was depressed, worried and scared. I lost one and a half pounds this week so I calmed down and took the time to think about what caused my weight gain.

Of course the weight gain could have just been water gain or just a blip in the weight loss road, but I think it was more than that. I took an honest look at my food consumption and finally admitted I bought the Cheez-Its for me, not my children. I wasn’t eating as many vegetables and fruits as I have in the past. I took control of my food choices this week and fixed my eating habits. I prepared a lot of vegetables to keep in the fridge for easy meals and snacks. I also brought the crock pot back out and I’m making healthy meals like turkey chili that the whole family enjoys.

One of the reasons I choose my surgery is that my smaller stomach keeps me from eating large quantities of food. It also keeps me from eating some “bad” foods like fried foods. Some foods are still easy for me to eat like crackers, pudding and wine so I have to keep quantities and how often I eat them in check. I know that keeping a food journal will help, but I’m saving that for another weight gain or a plateau. I honestly hate keeping a food journal. I find it tedious and boring after a while. I’ve counted points, calories and fat grams throughout the years of dieting. I will journal if I have to, but I hope to make eating the proper amounts and types of food part of my normal life. I am in control of my eating habits, no one else.

I took control of my exercise program again, too. I wasn’t making it a priority and this week I did. I planned out my running days and kept to them. I also changed my running locations. Changing my routine really helped! I ran today in one of my favorite spots in the city and it was invigorating! It inspired me to keep on track and make exercising a real priority in my busy schedule.

I am, and always will be, working on controlling my anxiety and stress levels. Some days I feel completely overwhelmed with the day-to-day activities my husband, children and I have to attend. While some things like school and work can’t be ignored, I feel like the other activities we commit to take away from our time together as a family. I am not sure what the answer is to this stress, but we did take a day this weekend just for our family. We went to Point Reyes National Seashore for the day and it was perfect. We had spectacular weather, amazing views, interesting wildlife to view, great walking paths, but more importantly no cellphone service! No phone calls, no texts and no alerts to interrupt our family day. My stress levels dropped considerably and I felt closer to my family. While we can’t run away from our responsibilities, it’s time to spend more time as a family.

Taking control of my weight loss is an ongoing process and I expect there will be more bumps in the road. Hopefully by taking control of my eating and exercising habits will help my weight loss to continue.   And I do know that spending more time doing fun activities with my family will help, too. I’m looking forward to going Down the Scale even more now!

Back to Normal…

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Week 31 of my gastric sleeve journey! Back to running and eating better to lose the last 28 pounds!

Week 31 of my Down the Scale journey is here and with it comes only a half a pound weight loss. Yes, a loss is a loss, so I’ll take it. And I discovered that last week I miscalculated how much I have to lose to make my goal. Note to self: do not do math while drinking wine on New Year’s Eve! I have 28 pounds left to reach my goal of 112 pounds. Whoo hoo!

I know 28 pounds is a realistic goal, but some days it feels like such a long way away. Getting motivated again after the holidays has been difficult I must admit. Food and exercising issues have reared their heads.

The holiday treats are gone and I definitely didn’t indulge like I have in the past, but I’m having a hard time going back to my mantra of “protein first!” Crackers are my nemesis. Time to stop saying I’m buying them for the kids and admit I’m the one who is eating them. I need to clean out the refrigerator and pantry and get it back to its pre-holiday condition. This means snacks that the kids like, but I don’t like and better protein, vegetable and fruit options for the whole family.

Fortunately, exercising is easier to get back into. I let my running slip and decided to start the Couch to 5K program from the beginning. Today was my third day of week one of Couch to 5K and it felt amazing. Yes, it really is true that exercising is the best stress reliever. Today I wore my new running leggings. I thought it might help me run better, but more importantly it shows me just how much my body has changed in this last seven months. And I run faster because I’m worried my butt shows in these pants!

The fact that I have already lost 84 pounds motivates me more than anything now. I never thought I could lose this much weight! Some days 28 pounds will seem like a mountain, but I hope to get my head in check and remember how far I’ve come, not just have far I have to go. I hope going Down the Scale in 2014 will be as exciting and worthwhile as it was in 2013!

My Second New Year

New Year's Eve 2013!  Losing 83.5 pounds in 2013 was exciting and I can't wait to see the changes I make in 2014!

New Year’s Eve 2013! Losing 83.5 pounds in 2013 was exciting and I can’t wait to see the changes I make in 2014!

2014 is here and for me, this is actually my second new year. I consider June 4 of 2013, my gastric sleeve surgery date, the start of my new year. This is the day I made the biggest change to my body, both physically and mentally. More importantly, it is one of the most positive changes I have made to my life.

30 weeks in my new year has been emotional, rewarding, difficult, joyful and not completely what I expected. I knew I would lose weight, but I really did not comprehend before surgery how much losing 83.5 pounds would change me and my life.

Physically, I am healthier than I ever have been in my adult life. I weighed less than my current weight in my early adulthood, but I didn’t exercise regularly or incorporate every day activity like walking. I actually want to run for exercise; I want to be a runner. I want to be someone who enjoys walking outside and exploring new places on foot. I even told my husband I will try camping! OK, it has to be in a cabin at first. Let’s not go to crazy with the “outdoorsy” life just yet.

The mental changes have been more dramatic in this new year. While I still suffer from stress, anxiety and depression from time to time, I am more aware when I feel these emotions. I’m learning not to deny them, but to admit I am struggling and to find a way to handle it without food. I am far from perfect, but I realize that admitting I am hurting is the first step to dealing with it in a positive way. I am extremely fortunate to have an amazing support network who helps me everyday. Without my husband, children, family and friends, food would still be front in center in my way against stress and depression.

For the first time in my life, I didn’t make a New Year’s resolutions that I know I can’t keep. At a party on New Year’s everyone posted a resolution on a chalkboard. Mine was “to make my goal and lose 38.5 pounds.” In the past, I would not have shared something so difficult and personal. By blogging my weight loss journey, I have put my goals and myself out to the world. When I starting sharing my story in May of 2013, I had no idea how important it would be to me and how much it would motivate me to keep going.

Thank you for reading my blog and supporting me by reading it, commenting and sharing your own struggles in life. I have learned I am not alone in my weight loss journey, but more importantly, I am not alone in life. This is the best new year I could have and I look forward to another year of going Down the Scale…